I had one, a panic attack, that is, just before starting class. I didn't start teaching on time, but rather 15 or 20 minutes late. Thank goodness for Lexomil.
Now I'm home, because I had a 4-hour "break." I don't know what to say. It's happening all over again.
I don't owe these people anything. I could just quit. I'm sure that any sub will be able to do as good a job as I.
But then I think I can't quit. I'm too tired to go into it. Perhaps I ought to lie down and rest. Maybe later on I'll be able to write more clearly.
EDIT: I took a two-hour nap, and went back to teach an 8th grade class. Vacation did nothing to curb their shittiness. At the end of class I just said "Look, this is the way you behave, then you say you don't understand anything. Cut it out." Well, I said it a bit differently. I think some of them got the message. But I still felt that old paralysis come on when they started to get out of hand. Anyway, thanks for the well-wishes here, there, and everywhere.
Damn, sorry to hear that Alison. Go get some rest, put all thougts of work out of your mind until you're better able to think about it clearly. We're all routing for you :-0)
Posted by: Daisy | February 21, 2005 at 07:54
Don't give up. This may help. (Helped me, big time.)
http://consilience.typepad.com/teachers_lounge/2005/02/managing_your_l.html
Posted by: Jeff Field | February 21, 2005 at 08:33
Hopefully the ones who got the message will help those who didn't get it, get it.
Posted by: Allan | February 21, 2005 at 14:11
Focus, Ali... You're better, smarter and stronger than all of the crap. You know your shit and some teenage pieces of shit shouldn't make a whit of difference.
Posted by: Thomas | February 21, 2005 at 15:31
Thomas is right Alison.
Posted by: Allan | February 21, 2005 at 15:49
Yep, I'll second that. You are a smart, tough cookie (and drop dead gorgeous to boot) - go give 'em hell!
Posted by: Daisy | February 21, 2005 at 19:29
keep your chin up!!
Posted by: El Cid | February 21, 2005 at 21:26
Thanks, all. Today is my Hell Day. 6 hours, i.e. ALL my students.
Posted by: Alison | February 22, 2005 at 01:25
Chin up, Ali. If they give you any more crap, you give them what for! They are ALL old enough to treat you with some courtesy and respect.
And here's a :hug: for you, too!
Posted by: Yibbyl | February 22, 2005 at 02:02
Quand je dois faire face à un événement qui me fait peur, j'ai appris à
me concentrer sur mes jambes et mes pieds pour bien ressentir l'ancrage au sol
respirer le plus profondément possible, avec le ventre calmement,
Cela m'aide beaucoup à accepter l'angoisse et à entrer en scène.
Ne fais rien d'inconsidéré, tu as besoin de ce job
:hug:
Posted by: coldbear | February 22, 2005 at 03:00
I'm crossing my fingers for you. I certainly hope it helps :-)
Posted by: Chris | February 22, 2005 at 08:43
Oh Jeesus, I taught public 8th grade for 5 years and then high school. Middle school kids are crazy and only crazy people teach them. You have to be insane to teach the hormonally challenged. I had 200 students a day. 200 crazy students. Oh man oh man! And I think my new career choice is hard now (cooking) – it ain't got nothin on teaching.
But don't you miss them? Especially when they send you little emails and say they miss you...
Bisous,
Ms. Glaze
Posted by: Ms. Glaze | October 23, 2006 at 16:07
Oh Jeesus, I taught public 8th grade for 5 years and then high school. Middle school kids are crazy and only crazy people teach them. You have to be insane to teach the hormonally challenged. I had 200 students a day. 200 crazy students. Oh man oh man! And I think my new career choice is hard now (cooking) – it ain't got nothin on teaching.
But don't you miss them? Especially when they send you little emails and say they miss you...
Bisous,
Ms. Glaze
Posted by: Ms. Glaze | October 23, 2006 at 16:08